in⋅fi⋅del⋅i⋅ty
| 1. | marital disloyalty; adultery. |
| 2. | unfaithfulness; disloyalty. |
| 3. | lack of religious faith, esp. Christian faith. |
| 4. | a breach of trust or a disloyal act; transgression. |
No words from my mouth…..just thoughts from my mind…..and tears from my heart. JRN
Never underestimate a man who overestimates himself. F.D.R.
Dad sent me a letter titled “PERSISTENT” and in it was this quote by FDR. My initial thought was “isn’t that a bit prideful?” But when i continued reading the letter……i realized that Dad was being inspired…..moved by his vision….to make something happen in his life. MY DAD IS AWESOME!!!!!!! He inspires me unlike no-one!!!!! The core of who i am…. i give credit to this amazing man. I thank God for placing him in my life…….he is not my biological father…yet we are tied at the heart. I call him my “Second Dad”…although he deserves first place.
And as old as i am he still signs every letter “love ya bunches little girl”.
JRN
A Friend Shared this with me today….He asked me to label him as one……I guess im a little confused, and scared at the meaning behind it all. Nonetheless i was moved by its contents….
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
Today i read something that i can’t shake………..
“The world says to follow your heart, but if you are not leading it, then someone or something else is. The Bible says that, “the heart is more deceitful than all else” Jer. 17:9 THE HEART WILL ALWAYS PURSUE THAT WHICH FEELS RIGHT AT THE MOMENT. GOD DOES THIS MAKE SENSE!!!!!!
I’ve always posed the question…..”Follow your heart or your head?” For the first time in my life i’ve been challenged TO FOLLOW NEITHER!!!!!! Not to follow, but to LEAD…..
JOY
Mr. Albert Einstein………
“It’s NOT that I’m so smart….its just that i STAY with problems longer!”
OK….so i know that Mr. E probably was quoting from a scientific viewpoint…….but he WAS human RIGHT???? So i’m sure this quote could be applied to EVERY aspect of his life (and mine).
I’ve been told that i walk away to EASILY from my problems, rather than sticking with them and figuring out a resolve. REFLECTING……REFLECTING…..REFLECTING……I’m trying to honestly answer that accusation. YES….i do walk……but usually my mind reasons that “some problems” are NOT worthy of pouring my time energy and emotions into. I have learned to be choosy because i have a tendency to “over think”……thus……i MUST WALK AWAY IN ORDER TO STAY SANE
Mr. E’s definition of INSANITY: DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
J-R -N
DRAINED
EMOTIONALLY…..PHYSICALLY……MENTALLY………….
a good cup of coffee, laptop, journal, zune @the cafe
an ice cold slurpee, laptop, journal, zune @ the park
my mind is so whipped that i cant even decide where to go and SHUT DOWN….both are my “safe haven”. The spot were i can breathe…..let go…..be ALONE.
JOY ROSE
THE FOUNDATION OF MARRIAGE (my definition..that is)
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Respect
How can i build (work) on something where the FOUNDATION has been shaken? He keeps trying to convince me that our “house” is fixable.
Why do i feel like there is a “CONDEMNED” sign dangling from our front door? Oh God here i go……….
little pig built her house out of straw
was blind to the danger that everyone else saw
worked so diligently to build her dream
lived a happy life…..or so it seemed
wolf was univited and asked not to stay
that fueled his anger so he blew it all away
little pig…little pig….let me in
NOT BY THE HAIR OF MY CHINNY CHIN CHIN!!!!!!!! jrn
A FRIEND LOVETH AT ALL TIMES - PROVERBS 17:17
I have found who my real friends are lately. You’d think an old lady like me would be a little more choosy or wise in the company she keeps. And yet i have this passion (maybe flaw) for people. Im easily attached to EVERYONE i spend a little time with. I cant help but love and respect them….regardless of differences…..regardless of race…..regardless of social class. The problem is….most people don’t share my passion. I try not to get to bent out of shape about it anymore…….because i realize we are all created different……we all have different passions.
The blessing in disguise is that i have stumbled upon some “forever friends”. The flip side is that they are few and rare. In fact the “others” really shouldn’t be classified as “friends” but “acquaintances”. Forever friends are just THERE all the time…..NO MATTER WHAT!!! They walk the mile with you…..they never leave your side……NO MATTER THE COST!!! Hell…they even CROSS THE LINE WITH YOU. They are the only ones i allow close to my heart……..
Tonight i THANK YOU GOD…for blessing me with the most amazing friends……i feel very fortunate to have them and you in my life!!!!!! JrN
three things i hate
1. liars
2. hypocrisy
3. those who cannot keep their word
two phrases i hate
1. “why me”
2. ”i can’t”
one word i hate
1. hate
JOY ROSE NELSON
i got home from work around 1100. Justine was sitting on the couch, in the dark. I sat next to her and asked her if everything was ok. She immediately began to cry. She told me she didn’t want to talk in the house because “he” was there. I asked her if she wanted to go for a drive and get a hot chocolate. She couldn’t even sit next to me in the front seat. I braced myself for the worst!! AHHHH the miracle powers of hot chocolate…….she spilled her guts………..she got suspended from school, and didn’t know how to tell me. Again i braced myself for the worst……. I assured her that there was NOTHING that she could ever do wrong that would change my love for her……..”its horrible ….mom”. “Someone DARED me to “pants” our trumpet player as he was performing….i swear i didn’t mean to pull his boxers too!!!!” It took every bit of self-control not to bust out laughing!!!! i kept it in……knowing that boy was probably soooo humiliated! I told her that there was ALWAYS a price to pay for rash decisions…..and that her punishment had to hurt…or she more than likely wouldn’t learn a lesson. She told me she had already wrote a letter of apology to him and her band teacher. HMMMMM…….how do you punish somethinglike that? Before i could collect my thoughts for her sentencing……she busted out “thats not all!”. Oh God…. i felt like a bomb was getting ready to drop. ” I want you to leave dad….for good…..you guys shouldn’t be together…..i hate the things he says to you……i hate the things he does to you……. i hate him but i love him……i want to leave our house…………….you promised something would change……..im unhappy ALL THE TIME!!!”
DO I SERIOUSLY HAVE A HEART ANYMORE?????????????? GOD i can stand my heartbreak NOT THEIRS!!!!!!
She told me that she heard him sat., tell me “I want to punch you so bad in your face, but your not worth going to jail for” …….and how i better “f@#^” him to prove that i wasn’t “f-ing” someone else.
We sobbed together……………….forever!!! I pulled myself together and asked her if i had EVER BROKE A PROMISE TO HER. She said “NO”. I reassured her to be patient with me……that i was trying my best to make changes. When we got home i told her to climb in bed with me…..and when she fell asleep………….i just cried uncontrollably
WHEN WILL THIS ALL END???????????????????????????????????? jrn
