My neighbor “Eston” died today……and im sooo emotional about it. To top it all off one of my girls (irene) at work was put on hospice care today. When i walked into work and saw her slumped in the “blue chair”…..i lost it…..my emotions got the best of me. IM MAD AT GOD TODAY….i dont understand!!!
What is the purpose of living if the end result is dying….oh god that sounded sooo stupid. I guess im ticked…..i want a say in when….and how i die. I’ve been raised to NEVER question Gods will. BUT TODAY IM SCREAMING “WHY”!!!!!!!!!! I think maybe ive been around tooo much death….too much suffering….too much misery. Im feining for light…for warmth….for the sun. I NEED THE SUN TONIGHT! JRN
