Archive for February, 2009
{ February 28, 2009 @ 12:17 am }
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Helen died today…and im pissed off at the world!!
People are so f-ing shallow in this world. All my manager and owner cared about was keeping her alive until sunday so they could collect a full months rent. Trying to push us to push her to LIVE….not merely because they cared or WANTED her to live…..But for the love of money. Who in their right mind would pro-long someone’s death…….especially someone who is OBVIOUSLY SUFFERING!!! A co-worker told me to calm down, because it was my money too…SERIOUSLY??? F@&% f*@% and Triple f@#%…… my son makes more money hourly than i do. I dont do this for the money!! And even if i did i would hope i would have some sense of morality. We are intrusted with their care!!!! These are their last days……they have done their time……they deserve love and respect! And they deserve to die WITH RESPECT!
I guess in retrospect Helen had the last word………
Rest in Peace…Dearest Helen! JRN
{ February 27, 2009 @ 2:04 pm }
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If you’re going through hell, keep going. ~Winston Churchill
This place is NOT my destination…so i refuse to stay. JRN
{ February 27, 2009 @ 1:55 pm }
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When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something’s suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful. ~Barbara Bloom
Thank you God; for the “golden” people you have placed in my life ……..to help mend the cracks. JRN
{ February 25, 2009 @ 6:07 am }
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I spoke with an Iconoclast
I thought there was an oddity about him, and always felt uncomfortable when we sat next to each other. i usually try to steer clear of him…but today the inevitable happened. i was trying sooo hard to avoid conversation.….of all days to assign group work!!!
He was actually intriguing……i had no idea what an iconoclast was. His knowledge of the Bible astounded me. He was heady about it though and a somewhat haughty. i reminded him that knowing God is a matter of the heart…not the mind. i could tell he did not agree, but was trying to show a mark of maturity by “agreeing to disagree”. i told him that he reminded me of Elihu in Job, and to be careful with all the knowledge he had attained. At this he smiled…but it was so dark….
My curiosity was peaked i wanted to know more:
ICONOCLAST:
- One who attacks and seeks to overthrow traditional or popular ideas or institutions.
- One who destroys sacred religious images.
interesting: Rebel WITH/out A cause!
{ February 24, 2009 @ 6:10 am }
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We got a new resident today…..Helen. I get so uptight when we get Hospice patients. i hate druging them…….but i understand that it is for their comfort. Poor Helen just moaned and cried each time i tried to reposition her or change her. Her shoulder and arm are broke and her face is bruised. Her dentures were caked with crud, and her glasses bent. I couldn’t help but stroke her head and hold her hand. She calmed down, as i kept reassuring her i was going to take care of her. Looking at her helpless, semi-lifeless body put “LIFE” in perspective for me today. Revelation of what i have…..even if its mobility or able to feed myself, or able to wipe myself etc………………hit home!
And i know i supposed to disassociate myself, and not get attached…………but i cant help but feel compasion for them. Maybe i’m not cut out for this.
{ February 22, 2009 @ 4:08 pm }
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Only in the agony of parting do we look into the depths of love.
George Eliot
{ February 22, 2009 @ 4:04 pm }
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- “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.” (1 John 4:18)
- “Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.” (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
I want to love again
I want to be loved again
{ February 21, 2009 @ 11:50 pm }
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My manager presented me with a gift today:
FUZZY……….WARM……..IVORY………slippers!
They had these HUGE snow balls dangling from them…..i immediately said “Oh…i LOVE them…..a present for no reason? Did you get them because im a girlie girl?” She said “No…i got them for you to remind you daily to GROW SOME BALLS!”
How do i grow Balls?
i guess ill start by watering?
{ February 21, 2009 @ 6:09 am }
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The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.
{ February 21, 2009 @ 6:00 am }
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Today was Rose’s 102 Birthday!!
She is one of the most amazing people i’ve ever met
Ross brought pictures of her from the 20’s, 30’s, 40’s ect.
Looking at the photos was more interesting than reading a history book.
It melted my heart to see her sooo happy…….i’d been asking her all week what she wanted for her birthday. She adamantly told me “to die” the last time i asked. Her response felt like a knife through my heart. As much as i understand why she wants to go……i have my own selfish reasons for wanting her to “live”. She told me she no longer serves a purpose here…..that she wishes to go. I tearfully told her how meeting her, and taking care of her…..had helped me cope……had motivated me to push forward………had willed me to live. I can’t help but think that God placed her in my life at a time when i had lost hope.
Soooo….when i arrived i busted out “You made it!” She laughed and said “Yes….i did…..until the next time!”
I hope there is a “next time” ………..right now i really need Ms. Rose Foster in my life!
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