Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt.
William Shakespeare
Archive for October, 2008
William Shakespeare
Broken LIFEHOUSE
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you’ve already figured out
I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I’m an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they’re still looking for life
I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
with a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you
I’m hangin’ on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I’m hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven’t forgotten my way home
What am i to you Norah Jones
What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue
When you’re feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I’d give you my last shirt
Because I love you so
If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I’m giving you the ball
When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you’re blue
Tell me darlin’ true
What am I to you
Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I’m giving you the ball
When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don’t fill my heart with lies
I will you love when you’re blue
Tell me darlin’ true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you
Now the Revelation!
so…he wants to go to counseling….now that our house is in shambles….our kids rebellious……finances dwindling…………now the REVELATION!!!!! He says everyone hits a low…….and now he realizes our family is in desperate need for help…………………..great! Why do i feel like it is too late!!!! he says its never too late for change…………..i have nothing left to give my heart is empty………….i don’t even know if i want it to work or if i’m willing to do what i need to do to bend………………i gave so much for so long…………i feel spent…..broken…………..I FEEL NOTHING!!!!
NEED
I don’t NEED any one…no programs….no friends…..no counselors…..no family………i can do this on my OWN!!!! I WALK ALONE!!!!!! I’ve made it this far ALONE…….i will make it………………i will survive!!!!!
NO NEEDS………………..I HATE THIS WORD……………….it coincides with weakness!!!! It is unfortunate that we have needs……it angers me that i HAVE to depend on any one other than myself………because in this life…you can count on literally NO-ONE!!! We all fail………..myself included……………….i guess i have (leave) no room for mistakes & let downs. I’ve tried to live by extremely High standards……………then one day your bubble burst and you realize no one else lives by YOUR standards….everyone has their own rules, and way of life. Maybe this means i am just unadaptable………….maybe it is pride…………….or maybe the core of who i am or who i used to be is just……………….DYING or Fading into nonexistence!!!!
NEED: a lack of something wanted or deemed necessary……….a requirement, necessary duty, or obligation urgent want, as of something requisite………………a situation or time of difficulty;exigency…….destitution; extreme poverty………………..
Coexist
coexist: 1. to exist together or at the same time.
2. to exist separately or independently but peaceably, often while remaining rivals or adversaries
Today i survive in this mode
There has to be more to marriage…………………….
